Alexandra Angus Photography
When I used to introduce myself, I never introduced myself as a photographer.

While studying photography in school, I would say, “My name is Alex, and I am studying photography.”

When I moved to New York after college I would say, “My name is Alex, and I am an intern for a fashion/beauty photographer.”

When I moved to LA in 2020, I would say, “I moved here to pursue photography, but I’m an assistant in a marketing company/cashier/customer service representative” (yes, I’ve held all those jobs this past year).

But in reality, I am a photographer. During all the other positions I’ve held, I have been creating photographs. For some reason, I didn’t feel worthy of the title. I thought maybe once I reached a certain level of income, had a certain number of clients, or was formally invited into an exclusive club that I would finally be a REAL photographer. But by not calling myself what I wanted and allowing my insecurities about the things I hadn’t accomplished to take the front seat, I was actually stopping myself from growing.

I was constantly looking at other artists and comparing myself. Instead of looking at them with admiration, I looked with jealousy. I saw where they were in their careers and thought, “Why am I not there yet?”

The truth is, whatever industry you’re in, there will ALWAYS be someone better than you. You can always find someone with more talent, who is working harder, who has more money, or more followers. It doesn’t mean you aren’t talented. It has NOTHING to do with you.

There will always be room to grow, improve, change, and that is the beauty of life. We don’t need to compare ourselves with anyone. The worst thing you can do is to see the success of others and give up because of it.

I am a photographer because I want to be, no matter how many others there are that may be better. They aren’t me, and that is my power.

- Alex Angus
Written by Holen Apparel

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